I need to write this down whilst it’s fresh. If I’m honest I am in total awe of my 3 year old! She is full of innocence & has taught me so much. For those of you who don’t know me, a little background for you. I have suffered with Emetophobia (phobia of sick) since, well as long as I can remember. Since the end of last year my Emetophobia has controlled the whole of my life and mind!
Well just the other day my Little S got very poorly, very quickly and was sick. Now the thought of this happening would have driven me to the blink, but actually this little 3 year old has taught me so much and I just want to shout about it!
So this is what my 3 year old has taught me about my Emetophobia:
I will cope and I will be okay!
The way she handled being poorly put me to shame. She was an absolute trooper! If she can handle it so well then so can I.
Only I can control the thoughts I allow to enter my head.
My anxiety around sickness is 100% in my head. I need to remember those things I learnt it CBT. If I cannot control it then I need to not worry!
I can not control and plan everything and that’s okay!
As part of my Emetophobia I try to control everything and obsess over how I’ll cope. When actually I cannot control everything and that’s okay because I do not need to control everyone and everything!
But most of all I can be there for my children when they’re poorly.
And this is what I am most grateful about. One of my biggest fears was that I wouldn’t be able to 100% be there for them if they were to get poorly. But by following her lead and accepting what was happening I was able too. And yeah I’m pretty proud of that!
So whilst I know I am not cured from my anxiety and phobia, I do know that I can cope if I need to. I am still going to seek some professional help to try and control my thoughts but for now I’m feeling good! All thanks to a little 3 year old girl. I couldn’t be prouder right now!