When I was a little girl, I always imagined I’d grow up to have three children. Some days I’d imagine three girls, others two girls and a little boy. Well I got my two girls. So I’m pretty certain if we were to go on to have another child, there is a pretty high chance I will be right! But do I want a third? If I do when is the right time? Is three children the magic number for us?
Not too long ago I was feeling pretty broody and I was certain my baby days would never be over. I had a just turned 3 year old and an eight month old! If James would have allowed it I probably would have had another there and then. But now I’m not so sure.
There is a 2 and a half year age gap between Little S and Baby L and whilst this was ideal when they were younger, it seems so big now that S is approaching 4! I’ve made no secret that Baby L is a mini tornado. She is constant! Don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t change a thing about her but the thought of throwing a newborn into the mix isn’t doing it for me, know what I mean?
So I often think we will wait until Baby L is at least 3, but then I think of all the selfish reasons why three children is not our magic number. Like no more childcare costs, no more nappies, no more sleepless nights, no new car – the list goes on. Plus three is such a huge number. I’m outnumbered with two during the week, how would I even cope with three?
But then I go back to that pang of grief. Grief for the blue lines I’ll never see again, the excitement of a new arrival I’ll never feel and the sight of my girls welcoming another sibling!
So yeah I’m not sure if three children is the magic number for us. But I’m not ruling it out either! I’m just hoping the moment will arise and just feel right you know? I’m still young, I have at least another 10 baby making years if all is well!