I have linked up with #MummyMonday over at Mummy Bloggers. For the first week I’ve decided to speak about my experience as a first time Mummy.
If you know me you will know that I work in a day nursery that takes children from as young as 3 months old, so I have pretty good experience when it comes to caring for children. Well so I thought! Little did I realise that it was so much harder than I thought.
At work I had people around me where if it was getting too much I could hand over to them or if I wasn’t sure/worried about something I could get a second opinion. Once Daddy had gone back to work I found that suddenly I was all alone with this tiny, innocent, dependant baby who needed me.. all of me! Don’t get me wrong we had lots of visits from family and friends but once the novelty had worn off they soon died down.
I never imagined having a newborn to be so hard and lonely. I imagined meeting up with other mummies for coffee in my local Costa. Taking day trips to the park, spending days in the sunshine! The only thing I didn’t really think of is the fact I don’t actually have any friends with babies. So whilst I’m at home, all my friends are working full time!
I knew that with a baby came responsibility but I never really thought it would be so suffocating at times. Sometimes it just felt like too much effort to leave the house because as soon as she was fed and I was able to get ready it was time to feed again!
I hated feeling all these feelings. I felt like a terrible mother because I kept on thinking about the down sides instead of focusing on the good parts. And trust me there are many many more good parts. However once we started getting into more of a routine (once I started focusing on ways to cope with the things I saw as negatives instead of just thinking about them) things got easier. I was able to leave the house, I was able to do the housework and I was able to just sit and spend time enjoying my daughter!
|How could I possibly be down with this cheeky monkey by my side every day?!|
I know I’ve spoken about a lot of negatives but the positives ALWAYS outweigh the negatives. I get to spend every waking minute of every waking day with the most beautiful, amazing baby girl who never ever fails to put a smile on my face no matter how I’m feeling. No-one else has the power to cheer me up without saying a word!