What Ifs?

If you read my post ‘Nearing The End To A Year Off’ you will know I plan on returning back to work in January.

We have already started our search for childcare and we have decided on split care with my Mum and a Nursery. We feel this is the best choice as Scarlett is such a sociable baby and loves other children. If all goes to plan I will return to work 3 days a week – Scarlett will go to my Mum for 1 full day and then for the other 2 days do half a day at Nursery and half a day with my Mum.

Since January is fast approaching we have already viewed a Nursery just down the road from us. It seemed nice but we did view it on Friday – one of there quietest days. I want to view a few more and go back on a busy day before I make my final decision.

Will Scarlett be okay?!

Just the other day I had a total meltdown and convinced myself I couldn’t leave her!

What if she needed me? What if they told her off and she was upset? What if she needed a cuddle and didn’t get one? What if she doesn’t settle with them?! What if she prefers her time there? What if I couldn’t cope being away from her?

Scarlett is such a lovely child but don’t get me wrong she can be a handful. She likes to pull hair, pick eyelashes (usually ends in a poke in the eye!) squeal at the top of her voice, scratch, blow raspberries (or just spit at you!) but she also needs a lot of attention and love.

What if they don’t understand that and just think shes being vicious? What if they don’t give her the love and attention she needs?

I know they are all just what ifs. But I’m not sure if they are the what ifs I’m willing to risk.

Please tell me this is totally normal and I am doing the right thing!!



  1. November 21, 2014 / 9:39 am

    These feelings are all normal, I felt exactly the same! Indiana spends 2 half days at nursery and the other half with her nannys. They always say how good she is, and never moans, wish she was like that with me haha xx

  2. November 21, 2014 / 7:50 pm

    Yeah I'm lucky that my mum is going to help out but the whole nursery thing is worrying me! At least Indie has Jack there so he has an idea of how it's run etc xx

  3. January 30, 2015 / 11:02 pm

    Completely normal having all these feelings. Now that it's January, how are you finding the move back to work?

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